Saturday, 18 November 2017

Breastfeeding, as a sacred path to divine mothering.

My BreastFeeding journey ended Yesterday. 
It had been 10 days since our last feed and I wondered whether that had been the last but yesterday morning LeoAnanda said to me, can I have 'Susu', (Indonesian word for milk which is what he calls breastfeeding).
I said yes and he got off pretty quick and I said, 'did it work?',he said, 'No'. I said, 'has all the Susu finished?. He said, 'Yes. Can I have a banana and some Orange Juice'. I said, 'Yes, and got up and got it for him'.
After I dropped him off to preschool I realized that our Breastfeeding journey was done. It had been a week before the 10 days. We even went 2 weeks once, then had 8 days of every morning. We've been breastfeeding for 3 & 3/4 years. What a beautiful journey it has been.



My first born was 19 months and one night she just stopped. My second born was 10 months, I went back to work and got really busy and couldn't get time to pump during work and he never came looking again.
I never thought at 44 years of age I would just complete breastfeeding. I never had a plan, I just let the babies lead. For me, my body knew what to do and so did my babes. I feel grateful that I have had this experience.
There is so much talk of breastfeeding and projections, it's such an ancient thing. We mothers feed our children. As do many animals. It's not just about the milk. It's about so much more. It's steeped in the foremothers and the tradition. The energy connects us all.
Interestingly, this popped up again this morning.
"When a baby suckles at its mother's breast, a vacuum is created. Within that vacuum, the infant's saliva is sucked back into the mother's nipple, where receptors in her mammary gland read its signals. This "baby spit backwash," as she delightfully describes it, contains information about the baby's immune status. Everything scientists know about physiology indicates that baby spit backwash is one of the ways that breast milk adjusts its immunological composition. If the mammary gland receptors detect the presence of pathogens, they compel the mother's body to produce antibodies to fight it, and those antibodies travel through breast milk back into the baby's body, where they target the infection."
Once Leo had Typhoid and I watched my milk change colour and composition over the 7 days he ate nothing and rested on my chest and never moved, it was a long 7 days.
My conscious breastfeeding journey started it's depth when my babe was 2 months old, I had what seemed in that moment experienced a traumatic event, which lead to more than I could ever have imagined.
A colleague of mine, whom is a well respected traditional Indian Tantric teacher said to me, you must take on the path of Divine Mothering my dear. 'You must purify your mind because your emotions, thoughts, feelings and everything you are going through will pass through your milk into your babe'. This startled me at the time but rang true to my ears like God*dess was speaking directly to me.
And so I did, I would chant mantras in my head and play devotional beautiful music when I was feeding him. I would try my hardest all day to not have horrible thoughts going through my entire body, as I could feel the trauma in my body. I supported me to be in a good vibration. It was extraordinary. My daily practise got more solid than I ever had experienced.
When I was exhausted I would just be quiet and enjoy the quiet of the space. If I was bored, I would load great books onto my phone and read while I was Breastfeeding. I tried not to pollute my being with nonsense on the phone feed while feeding. I studied Grace and the Grace of God to assist me during these hard difficult days and nourish my body and soul for the transmission of my milk to my babe. It was very satisfying and helped me beyond comprehension with my journey.
I've fed him in temples, on planes, in shopping centres, while teaching, while in holy waters with groups, so many places. I see it as something very sacred. I have been one of the fortunate ones and have not once ever been asked to cover up or received any negative energy from anyone for it.
I share this with many of my new mother students. This path after conscious conception, conscious pregnancy and conscious mothering/parenting. How we can make simple adjustments to support ourselves and nourish our babes in so many more ways than we know.
Many aren't into ancient hindu mantras and we find beautiful music to play and find songs aligned with their joy to use while feeding their babes. The practise of pure potent presence.
Literally sharing your vibration with your baby through breastmilk with awareness. The transmission of information and love.
Not everyone can breastfeed, many don't want to and some it's not appropriate but for those who are and do can know that there are ways to bring the sacred into something so precious. For many it's a short time, 1 maybe 2 years of their life. In 80 odd years, that's a blip of time.
We never try and make anyone feel bad or inadequate, we are here to support each other and to share with each other. Gathering together to rise humanity towards a new path of Love through unity.
I loved breastfeeding before I became conscious of this process and I adored it deeply after I started this practise. I encourage sharing this wisdom to our next generations to be conscious in our actions and aware of the depths that we impact others especially in the most natural way.
Knowing that I no longer share this tangible exchange between me and my babe brings me to consideration of the next chapter of this divine mothering I do with him. I dance it so personally with my 18 year old daughter, my 15 year old son, and my giant 3 year old. They are all so unique and their Love Languages all different. Being a guide for these children to grow and mature ebbs and flows with the rhythm of life. Each season brings a new wave of connection and possibilities.
This (k)new wave truly completes the baby stage and the joy of broadening into life and expanding into it's offerings is welcomed and celebrated.
I'm encouraging us all to remember that there is such sacredness in our modern world especially at these times where we are questioning it all. Conscious awareness. Every moment is a meditation. Connect, plug in and contribute consciously to the collective. The best time to start is today. Right now.
Life is an Offering.

Mata Durgaji.
Amma Durgaji.
Ibu Durgaji.
Ma Durgaji.


 

Ma🙏

Wednesday, 18 October 2017

#metoo DNA Wounding and so much more.


I invite you to stare at this image for awhile and drink all that in.
 
Imagine these 3 bodies (or more, your siblings) sharing this space, DNA, beliefs, experiences and cellular memories.

(I saw this pic a few days ago and it landed on me big time and then the very next day #metoo exploded).... read on.




WOUNDS IN OUR DNA ðŸ’”

Ancestral wounds are a huge thing.

If you've ever felt like you suffer from societal, environmental, ethical or sexual trauma, but you cant remember the trauma happening to you it's possible you have blocked it out, but it's also possible that it's not actually yours but someone else's.

Say what? Totally!

You could be experiencing trauma that is your mother's or your maternal grandmother's.

You're probably thinking how in the Hell could that even happen?

Let me explain.

At one time when your grandmother was pregnant she was carrying your mother as a fetus and inside her fetus was the egg that would one day become you (imagine stacking/nesting dolls).

So at one point, you, your mother, and your grandmother were all one body.

MIND BLOWN?

Mine was when I considered this, but it is true. You were sharing blood, DNA, emotions, and a single body.

Sexuality has changed a lot over the years, especially since the 1960s. So the older you are the more likely your mother or your grandmother had A LOT of sexual shame. Abuse has been happening since the beginning of time. Things happening to humans, every single second.

You inherited some that through DNA.

You then picked up even more through your upbringing.

Your parents, teachers, religion, the media, and society in general left you with lots of mixed impressions about abuse, life, habits, values, beliefs and sexuality.

It's so common we end up carrying so much sexual shame and guilt in our wombs as women, we hold our shame there and if we don't deal with it, we pass it on.



I work with women and do a lot of womb wisdom work. 

The numbers of sexual and person abuse and harassment are massive. Like mind blowing. Yet it's so common. The norm in fact. To not have it is rare. Very rare. Yet most say nothing. Extraordinary right. The human conditioning has shut us All down, men, women, children. All of US.

The beauty of this campaign is that it's on the table. It's out and we ARE talking about it. 

It's triggering the heck out of many and that's what happens before shifts. Squeezing and squirming and lots and lots of discomfort. 

So let's go back and consider the picture. How much shame did you inherit from your lineage. How much trauma is stored in your DNA?

The Answer on what to do now?

Do the work in this lifetime. If you have cleared the trauma from your cells you won't pass it on to your children. You can even do the work NOW and that will ripple through to your existing children. DNA work is potent. 

You wake up; then your family will eventually wake up. You don't need to pester them to try and wake them up. (That's in fact counterproductive). You can do the work. And that is not a burden, it's an honour. You took the option during preparing for life to show up here on earth and get into it.

So the good news is, you on'y have to be concerned with your own growth. Focus on being the best version of you and to practise Pure Potent Presence and learn to define your own impeccable boundaries.

I look at this picture and think of my Grandmother who had lost her mother when she was 15, I look at my mother as the growing baby, she lost her mother when she was 18 (so much loss, so much trauma, their stories are heartbreaking) and me as the egg sitting there waiting for my time. 

So much happened in that 9 months that we were all in there, so much happened over the 9 generations that include my children and my daughters eggs, (back 7 generations from me). 

Consider now, will you be brave? 

Will you stand up to those that haven't had an awakening enough to understand that hurting another isn't going to take their hurt away? That is the fundamental piece here. We only hurt others because we don't know how to deal with what's going on inside us.

Will you treat yourself in a manner that you wish others treat you? 

The ripple affect from this can be huge, if we choose to see it for what it is.

An opportunity. For growth. For collective evolution.

Keep talking please. Reach out. Support each other. Do the work with your wounds.

What is now known, cannot be unknown.
Everything is Illuminated. Shine the light into the Darkness.
This is a global purification in action.

Terima Kasih Tuhan.

I love you. ðŸ˜

#allofus

Monday, 2 October 2017

Why am I here on earth?

I have a QUESTION FOR "YOU" !!!  
Why are we here?
How often do you ask yourself that question?
Imagine if you asked yourself that question every single morning and deeply considered it. Like Deeply considered it.
 I woke up this morning and the first post on my newsfeed was by a friend in Vegas who was at the concert where there was mass shootings, he gave a full recount of their escape and how he lost his wife for some time and was reunited with her and then finally safe in their home. It was like reading a script of a movie. Heart thumping, anticipation, energy rising. This was real life, just hours before. 
This is our world and the dark stuff has been around since the beginning of time. Humans killing each other and doing ghastly things. 
Why?
Like what is the actual purpose?
Power and sickness!!!
Same same spectrum.
In fact it is always.... DISCONNECTION.
I've been considering this a lot of late.
 Two blocks from my house on the path to the supermarket there is a Methadone Clinic in between a Convenience store and Pharmacy. I see many of it's clients out the front leaning on the sidewalk garden box smoking. Chatting amongst themselves. I look into their vacant eyes and I see their fractured energy field, their dull aura and their sunken shoulders.
I smile and acknowledge them every time. It's probably rare, most people look the other way.
So I consider what's going on there often.
As I consider what's going on for our entire human race.
As I consider what's going on for me.
 It's all the same and everyone is at some individual point along the connection~disconnection spectrum.
What is the purpose/point of this human life, on this planet earth, at this time?
 
Like REALLY, What IS the Point/Purpose of it?
This is the biggest question we should be asking ourselves.
And the answer is NOT to be successful, that interpretation is steeped in separation of society created idealisms.
The answer is NOT to help others, that is easy, helping others is easy. That's sneaky ego wanting to feel good about itself 'helping others'.
(Helping others genuinely occurs as the consequence of helping yourself).
The point of life is Connection and that is NOT to each other. Connection to each other is the BRIDGE.
The Bridge to get self into a state of pure connection to All, to the entirety of 'consciousnessness'.
The ultimate goal (if we are talking current language; goals and such), is to be connected into the collective cosmos. Which is so big for so many to even consider.
When one is CONNECTED into the natural field of consciousness there is no separation, one Knows that we are a big collective of atoms vibrating at different levels experiencing everything as their own. 
When one is Aware and in the Knowing, one does not feel alone, does not feel sad, does not feel isolated. One will feel compassion, empathy and understanding. 
 The fight is not segregation, that's separation and further away from 'the goal'. 
By being a living example of Connection is the most effective way of helping others. It shows them another way of being. More walk, less talk. 
And by holding a safe container of this example is how the helping can occur.
It's such a long massive road ahead.
 Have you noticed it's through disaster, trauma, deaths, shootings, hurricanes, volcanos that community come together. Isn't that interesting. Yet when all is running smoothly, we don't even talk to our neighbours. Disconnection.
So the universal collective creates these events to try and create a sense of connection for the human race to remember the point, the purpose.
If we can help each other we might consider what life means. Why we are here?
Are we in the mindset yet? What is the point of all this?
Imagine this: you Know that you are a part of this entire Multi-verse, within this current universe of the uncountable cosmos of the trillions of billions of universes. On this tiny planet in this solar system and you are a 'piece of all that.' You are an aspect of that contained (literally) inside your current human body. That is what you are. A manifestation of consciousness experiencing itself as a human person.
 
Running around trying to find a partner, work your heart out to make enough money to measure some sort of human success and inside you are feeling alone, depressed and angry at all that has happened to you. You are disconnected. Something bad happens you come together with others, you feel connected. That is the bridge. The point is to always feel connected to this whole. 
To remember who you are. 
To remember What you are. 

This is so much bigger than our human minds can fathom, so we stay small. We stay singular and all alone. No matter who or how many are around us. The mind tells you stories which are the mind of the entire planet. Fear, fear, fear. Separate from the badies. Kill the enemy. Blah blah blah.... imagine for one moment, if every one took a good deep consideration to why they were here. 
And stepped into the Response-ability to that why. 
And only worried about their own sanity and state of mind. And what needed to happen for them to re-connect with the whole. 

The fractured field of this planet would start re-connecting with itself and the threads of humanity would start to support itself and well, I'm sure you can see where this may go.
Yet we are more disconnected than any time before. EVER. Fear and control are rife. We have so called more freedom but we don't. The illusion is rife.
The only sovereignty one can have is inner freedom. 
To be free of fear. 
To truly know that this is all an aspect of evolution for consciousness. You are currently playing out this part of it. In this perceived time. Thanks to gravity we FEEL it all. That's the gig with gravity you can feel. It's a gift but it's a hell for so many. 
The go to; is escape it, get away from it... as far away as possible, (the opposite of connection). The pharmaceuticals send people into cocktails of disconnect, the drugs, the booze, the distractions, the everything that takes the self away from the remembering. 
This is the illusion being fed, to help and support is the very thing that is cutting the connection. 

If we can take one step today. 

And deeply consider your belief, thoughts and true feelings. On Why are we here? 
What is the big massive giant ungraspable point of this insane world on this massively tiny planet? 

Why am I here? 
Contemplation station......


Love, Nicole Phoenix Starr.
Post from FB:  

www.nikstarr.com (Australia)
www.durgaji.com (Canada)

Tuesday, 11 July 2017

And then the Bali chapter closed.....

I'm not even sure where to begin writing this.  I'm sitting here in a Queensland winter by the beach; in fact I sat here 6 and a half years ago on my last day before I moved to Bali.  I'm literally 20 meters from where I was sitting saying goodbye.  Sitting here realizing this writing this.  This is the cycle of a most profound journey and another unfolding effortlessly in front of me.  

Let's step back 7 years.  To the first call, my friends ask me to accompany them to Bali for a research trip.  I had never aspired to go to Bali, ever.  Yet unbeknownst to me, back then she was calling.   I landed and felt a deep resonance, much to my surprise.  After spending time wandering around her, I found myself saying; "I'm moving to Bali", I didn't think that was possible, yet the universe had some serious plans for me and cleared the way to make that possible and within 3 short months I was indeed moving to Bali.  Totally blowing my mind and freaking me out, yet I felt compelled beyond anything I had experienced to go. 

First trip.... things felt normal to me for the first time pretty much ever.

In less than a month I had been taken to scared ceremony and immersed in the Hindu and local culture.  This was never on my mind, how could it be, I never knew anything about it, (not until I remembered).  I had no idea why I was moving to Bali, I thought I would blend into expat life, my children would go to Green School and maybe I would take up yoga.  No, this was not the divine plan at all.  Not one bit.  Nothing like that.  I was in for a ride I could never imagine, not in my wildest dreams.   I was to embark on a spiritual journey that would not only blow my mind but every single thing I had ever thought.  And more.

For the first time in my life I felt safe, accepted and clear.  It was a most odd experience.  I showed up to every single ceremony and practise, without ever considering not.  I found a new way of contemplating life and all that was happening to me which appeared like a living hell in my mind, was indeed my world showing me the way.

People started to enquire after my doings and beings.  I had to reframe everything and the unfolding occurred and the request for 'showing my experiences' evolved into group spiritual journeying.  Much to my surprise I became a guide for others and a new me was awakening.

I could write a trillion words of what happened over those middle years of this last 7 year cycle.  And I have in fact written some which is in a little book in the editing stage and a memoir will come at some stage.

I have had hundreds of people journey with me and since I took my teachings online, there are now thousands who have experienced the work.

The stories of what occurred over the years are mind blowing, yet they were my experience.   I tell these events and watch peoples jaw drop and the Wow's follow.  Sitting at the feet of Gurus, activating volcanos, shapeshifting in caves and endless extraordinary things happened.

I learnt more in this time than I ever anticipated in this lifetime.  I learnt how to navigate life beyond dimensions and how to be in this realm.  I said, YES and the entire universe conspired to meet me there.

And so it began, again much to my surprise I was in a massive process.  It lead to me becoming a Hindu and then going through the process of Master, Mangku, Jero (priestess) and High Priestess. 


Hindu Ceremony and Hindu name.  Putu Widiani... A homecoming.

I had embodied Goddess Durga in a cave with a tantric swami and this whole new world opened up.  Then a billion other things happened and then for my 40th birthday I got a most surprising gift.  Hello LeoAnanda Ganesh Starr.  The divine mothering path as Durgaji.   

We hang out with the High Priestess.


The orginial plan seemed ready for ripening a few years later and the big kids came to live our not so much expat life.

As my work and my teachings got more refined and more potent, my practise of divine mothering got a huge workout.
Chop Wood, Carry Water.


So many endings were presenting themselves.  "Much to my surprise", 'seems the constant theme'.  The mind is always up for surprising things.  I was being called to other lands.  Strongly.  I started the search across the planet and the whisperings became very loud.  My beautiful daughter graduated high school valedictorian of Bali Island School and our exit plan was well underway.

The last big journey where 11 courageous souls joined for a karmic contract was beyond anything any of us anticipated.  Including me.  The final NikStarr Bali Retreat was a sacred container of my time in a journey.  Guiding this group as I was saying goodbye simultaneously was so much more than words can convey.  An absolute honour and a graduation of sorts of self.  As just days after, I went through High Priestess and a huge completion and embodiment occurred.  My preparation to leave Bali was complete and I was free to go.  It felt like a natural evolution.  I was not sad to leave my beloved island at all.  Contrary, super excited to continue into the next chapter.  The last few days were incredibly beautiful.  Beyond anything I could have wished for.


We boarded our plane and as I turned my phone off, it was 11:11pm, I smiled.   And onwards we went, up up up into our visit to Australia.  Having 2 events to say farewell to my beloved students and anyone else who wants to play.  To celebrate Ruby's 18th birthday and spend time with my parents.  And then we will be off, to the other side of the planet, literally and into our new life.


Beloved Bali, I had no idea what you had in store for me.  I'm so glad I answered your call.  I will be back to visit as promised.  The unimaginable unfolded and you taught me all about surrender, humility and embracing divine plans.  And so onwards we go.  You are embedded into our hearts and part of our souls, we will share your wisdom and wonder wherever we go.  

North America we will see you soon and embrace your big plans with a knowing and beyond.




Grace and gratitude, 

Durgaji Ibu Jero Putu Widiani Nicole Phoenix Starr.

www.nikstarr.com

Tuesday, 4 April 2017

Do you know what your name means?

A Truly fascinating consideration ahead.

Do you know the meaning of your name ?  If you don't go do a google dash and find out.  If we think about it, if we don't know the meaning of our name, that's pretty interesting.  We have this word that everyone calls us, we are literally attached to it in the system from our birth certificate to passports to bank accounts to every one using it to create a connection with us and it is said, thought or spoke of many times a day.  That's a huge use of a word.  Words have weight.  There is a vibration to words and there is also a numeric reflection of composition in regards to the numerology of your name at birth.

It's so fascinating to me.  I have been in deep reflection of this since Guruji brought this to my consideration.

So what does Nicole mean: 


The given name Nicole is of Greek origin and means" victorious people"

In Greek the meaning of the name Nicole is:  People's victory.
People with this name have a deep inner desire for love and companionship, and want to work with others to achieve peace and harmony.
People with this name tend to be orderly and dedicated to building their lives on a solid foundation of order and service. They value truth, justice, and discipline, and may be quick-tempered with those who do not. Their practical nature makes them good at managing and saving money, and at building things in the material world. Because of their focus on order and practicality, they may seem overly cautious and conservative at times.


This was interesting find in my research:

Nicole
A Nicole is someone who is omnipotent. A Nicole is gorgeous, intelligent, mysterious, witty, hilarious, out-going, creative and seductive, yet she is also tough, street-smart, experienced, brave, enduring, and mainly a wonderful mother. Nothing and nobody can compare to a Nicole in any aspect. Mess with a Nicole, or her family, and you will regret ever being born.

It's so interesting we attach meaning to everything but do we ever spend time considering the meaning of our name.  What is it's purpose, are we to live out that purpose.  It's that a piece of the entire life puzzle.  I think so.

I was born Nicole Evans, Evans meaning son of Evan.  Evan means God has been gracious, or God has shown favour.  "I didn't know this until just now..... geez".

In 1998 I married a Starr and became one, this was a welcomed name and It meaning is:  a name given to a person who was a person whose personality or appearance called to mind; a bright shining star. 


Phoenix was something that came through for me Easter Sunday in 2010, I literally rose out of some ashes and embodied this name, it was a long time coming, I have felt very drawn to this name for eons., it has been with me ever since.  I always had middle name envy as a child. 


The name Phoenix is a Greek name. In Greek the meaning of the name Phoenix is :A bird that built its own pyre and then was reborn from the ashes.
People with this name have a deep inner desire for love and companionship, and want to work with others to achieve peace and harmony.
People with this name tend to initiate events, to be leaders rather than followers, with powerful personalities. They tend to be focused on specific goals, experience a wealth of creative new ideas, and have the ability to implement these ideas with efficiency and determination. They tend to be courageous and sometimes aggressive. As unique, creative individuals, they tend to resent authority, and are sometimes stubborn, proud, and impatient.
And then I just started this huge flow of names being given to me, all I ever wanted was a middle name, now I've lost count of how many I have.

Let's see:

Durgaji Ibu Jero Putu Widiani Aditi Nicole Phoenix Starr.  That's 7. WOW.  And then there is simply 'Nik' and 'NikStarr'... which are others used more often than most.

(Just now checking NIK..... English Meaning: The name Nik is an English  name. In English the meaning of the name Nik is: Lord.  Lord being the direct translation from God/dess).  So NikStarr therefore means, Shining bright God*dess.  FANCY FREAKIN THAT, I am literally researching this part as I write this. 


Durgaji was the name Swami gave me as soon as I met him and the only thing he ever called me, I wondered for a long time if he even knew my birth name.  I have been reflective deeply over the last two weeks of my tantric journey and how it essentially saved me (from myself), a brutal path of fierce awakening, knowing self as well as I do, it worked divinely and far beyond my perceived minds capacity.

Durga...... (just saying it in my head the depth of this is felt in every cell of my body, I adore being a manifestation of Devi Durga.  The moment she awoke within me I felt home.  I became safe, certain and truly alive.  It took me 3 days to embody and integrate, I nearly went insane.  The path hasn't been easy, it's been unimaginable and totally divine).

Durga means 'impenetrable'.... "the inaccessible" or "the invincible".  She is the mother of all creation. T
he goddess of power and strength

"ji" is a honorific suffix used in Hindi to convey respect to the individual whose name it is appended to.  eg. Swamiji, Guruji........ Durgaji.

At the time of receiving this name, I researched Durga deeply.  I wasn't exactly pleased with being the mother to all.  The mother figure was something I hadn't found easy and at the time my children were very far from me and there was so much pain associated with it all.  'well played Swami, well played'.  I came to feel deep grace with the blessing of this name.  I understood the reverence it held.  I understood it was my duty to respect that greatly.  I understand now, this name thing, is a very big deal.

Putu Widiani is my Hindu name given to me by Brahmana at my Hindu conversion ceremony. Putu, meaning first born (in my family) and Widiani, meaning spiritual master.  I felt a deep sense of belonging the day I received this name and answered automatically to Putu without any need to get used to it.

Ibu Jero is a title, it means Priestess or Female Priest.  I got this when I had my ceremony to become a Jero.  My high priest only ever calls me Jero Putu.


Aditi.... meaning "boundless, entire" or "freedom, security" in Sanskrit. This is the name of an ancient Hindu goddess of the sky and fertility. According to the Vedas she is the mother of the gods.

This name was given to me while I was literally on stage at the World Hindu Summit in 2013, I was pregnant with LeoAnanda and the Amma was a revered Guru from India that felt compelled to give it to me then and there.

CAN YOU SEE A THEME .......... WOW, JUST WOW!!!!!!.





I hold these names sacredly within my heart, all of them.  

I'm thanking Guruji for prompting me into this deep consideration, our biggest Label.  Our name.

I remember I went and had a session with a famous Mangku of numerology, he did all the numbers on my name and gave me such incredible insight.  That lead me to a river, of 5 ways, a place that joined 5 parts to the whole and did a hilarious ceremony, quite the rebirth energy and cleansed my names vibration for me, its was a huge marker on my journey. 


I asked my daughter Ruby this question; she looked at me with wide eyes and said..... 'a gemstone'.... and then she hit google and what unfolded, was the most precious of gems and so so so so much more... Her middle name is Shiloh, which means 'peaceful one'.... Shining Starr.

I have just now looked up my son Harley, it was a name that his father suggested to divert me from my wish, namely Ferris.... I was happy to settle with Harley.  It means 'hare's meadow', He's always off down some rabbit hole for sure.  Hahhahaha, his middle name is Luther, a name in line with the 'peaceful message of middle names'... Shining Starr.

And then there is my third child LeoAnanda.  Blissful Brave Hearted one.  Ganesh, (his middle name,  being the son of Durga).....  Shining Starr.


I think I will leave todays transmission there.  
Hugs...

Thursday, 30 March 2017

Free fall genius ~ The Leap of Faith



There's a place that has a reputation as 'scary' and not everyone knows that this is also called 'Free fall genius'......this is the space between surrender and smiling.
I know you have experienced in some way or another. 

Where it's really scary (and perhaps the alternative is even more scary; often doing nothing is the worse option)..... and you leap, and you may be holding your breath and then there is this space where something Bigger than you has kicked in and you not only know everything is going to be ok, it's actually going to be far more profound than you could have ever imagined aka 'The Unimaginable'. 


The energy in the fear is transformed into an expanded state which allows the Genius to rise in the free fall. 



The Leap of Faith is Genius indeed <3 



Brave Boots ON.



Tuesday, 5 July 2016

The Illusion: that the goal is Peace on Earth.

The great wish..... Peace on Earth.

Everyone is waiting for .... Peace on Earth.


Everyone is 'Peace on Earthing'....... what if this is not the purpose of Earth?

What if earth is indeed the classroom for evolution of the Soul and 'peace' would disrupt the learning?


What if the very friction and all the suffering was the essence of earths offering to the souls that come here for the human experience?

Why is it that nature follows this premise without question or egoic desire for it to change?





If we take a moment to look at the cycle of birth, death and rebirth; the cycles aren't all peaceful.

If we look at the forest after the fire has been through and the rejuvenation that naturally occurs.


If we look at the destruction of Mother Nature herself, her magnificence and majesty is profound and her destruction is inescapable and shattering.

The nature of the earth is not peaceful.



The land of duality.  Where there is a light and dark of everything with a whole lot of grey in the middle.  Literally, the gravity of all things can be found opposing each other.  Magnetic poles and magnetic personalities.  It goes on and on and on and on.

The cycle of Samsara is the very nature of earth and every single atom on it. Part of it. Making it the earth it is in any given moment.  Then it's in the next stage of the cycle.

There is a theory, of which I align with and that is;  that every human on earth came here for a purpose.  That we are all souls.  We are souls that chose to come here for this current lifetime.  When we finish this lifetime we will return to the cosmos in whatever realm we are destined and then we will go through the next process of our soul journey and onward and onward.  We may chose to come back to earth again at some time to have another go.  


Under this theory earth is the place of evolution, of growth, of learning and of karmic consequence.  Earth is where we are able to experience many things and understand a new level of awareness.  Where we can grow intellectually, spiritually and physically.  It is here the ultimate classroom of soul learning occurs within these human body suits with our soul family.  A lot of learning comes through adversity.  Deep realizations come through intense suffering.  Bliss is experienced from pure joy.  Awareness brings wisdom.  If there was only peace then we would have no polarity to learn from.  That is not human nature.  Human nature is curiosity.  Human nature is understanding through questioning.  Human nature is compassion through pain.  The earth is not destined for peace, I believe that is 'heavens' purpose.
 



This wishing, hoping and praying from peace on earth is bypassing the purpose of life.  It's ignoring the responsibility that comes with being granted a life on earth.  Having the opportunity to come to earth to learn soul evolution is such a gift.  The soul can learn so much here.

The goal here on earth is "peace within".  


If we have peace within then the earth will, without a doubt, become a more peaceful place to be.  The earth has never ever been simply peaceful.

I was recently at a global conference speaking about the ancient wisdom of the Bhagavad Gita in the modern world.  The most revered Swami there talked about how all the great masters had challenges and life issues to deal with every day.  How Buddha shared the problems with his family and how Jesus had huge adversities, nails in hands are rather challenging.  Todays masters and enlightened beings daily have challenges to deal with.  The Dalai Lama always has something to attend to.  Oprah Winfrey, her reach and impact is huge.  Richard Branson, business and getting spaceships out of the atmosphere is very challenging.  Nelson Mandela, rather challenging few years he encountered...... I could go on and on and on.  I'm sure you get my point.  All these people have grown, evolved and risen to new heights from the very things that have taken any sense of peace from within them.  

It is not an external thing.  There being peace in the external is not going to bring peace within.  The is delusion.  

I recall when this notion dropped in on me.  I was going through yet another huge challenge in my life.   I was asking my colleague for help and this is what he replied to my email:



"When you are well founded in yourself.  No negativity will affect you."


You become so smooth that nothing can hook in, I reflected.

Whether you are in a temple or whether you are in a jail the environment doesn't need to affect you, perhaps the environment can be affected by you being there? Peace in action.

This earth is a long way off being peaceful, our leaders still think that we should kill each other or blow up each others neighbourhoods to bring peace. 


This all comes from the separation we have as humans.  Forgetting we are souls.  All souls from the one source.  Pure consciousness.  God, Allah, Shiva, Tom, Dick or Harry did not make the earth, universe; they are metaphors for guidance for the human while on earth.  They are beautiful learning tools and energies that assist us in remembering.  Pure consciousness is the infinite eternity that we humans cannot comprehend with these human minds. And we all stem from pure consciousness.  All souls coming from pure consciousness to earth to have a human experience to learn 'peace within'.  Currently most humans are without peace.  That is ok, that is why we are here.  
To learn, to remember. 


To consider for one moment if the main focus of everybody on earth was to embody 'peace within' there may be a little more success.  Trying to focus on peace on earth is truly missing the point. The peaceful experience on earth comes when one is at peace within.  

It really is as simple as that.

Oh and yes it's difficult and oh yes it's so hard and oh yes there is so much against this concept.  

Yes, correct, and that is where we have the greatest opportunity to thrive.   



Humans continue to handle more than they ever thought they could endure.  To recognise somehow you signed up for all of this.  And in that realization seeing that it was to grow, to learn, to evolve.

Soul Work.


Perhaps then you may meet these challenges a little different.  Perhaps you will see everything that arises as an opportunity rather than a challenge.  Perhaps you will embrace it with such enthusiasm that you find this soul work far more purposeful.  Maybe....





It's easy to wish for 'Peace on earth' and rally around screaming it at the masses.  It takes courage and commitment to, working on 'the peace within'.  

The consequence of one's response-ability to all human doings creates human beings more aligned and more interested in each others 'peace within'. 

Earth has exactly the perfect conditions for the soul to have a human experience.  
One that squeezes you so much that the only way to find peace is to go within.






The earth will love you for it.  



'Earth, where peace can be found'.




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Nicole Phoenix Starr.


www.nikstarr.com